The television is on but in a different position.
Instead of upper left, it is behind me to the right.
The sound is still good, but in an unfamiliar place.
The computer screen remains the same but with more light than in the dank Mansland.
Then it happens.
Midnight has arrived and the realization that no one will come in and stop the writing or thought process or music or the volume.
Looking up at the time recorders and the manger scene, I realize that this is the space that only we create for ourselves.
No interruptions.
A simple table filled with a cup of pens and markers, staplers, tape, notebooks, envelopes… very foreign yet familiar.
I close my eyes and place my headphones on to listen to strange sounds and no one stops me.
Is this freedom or has the camera run out of film.
The trunk is in the house.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Moving Home
Today a young man who struggled for 3 hours for less than $200 put the bathroom floor in and he picked up the trash. Nice job for a quarter of what another contractor had estimated.
The next thing is to call the plumber to finish the installation and give another load to the Salvation Army.
So the rest of the day was grocery shopping, sweeping, moving boards, then resting and watching the news.
Now it’s time to move into the house.
Unplug the laptop and modem and plug them inside as the rain drips on the window.
I sleep inside, and now, the factors that entertain me, educate me, challenge me, the tools used for the daily message are now inside the abode.
It is a beginning of a new (yet familiar) adventure.
The next thing is to call the plumber to finish the installation and give another load to the Salvation Army.
So the rest of the day was grocery shopping, sweeping, moving boards, then resting and watching the news.
Now it’s time to move into the house.
Unplug the laptop and modem and plug them inside as the rain drips on the window.
I sleep inside, and now, the factors that entertain me, educate me, challenge me, the tools used for the daily message are now inside the abode.
It is a beginning of a new (yet familiar) adventure.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Quiet2!
Last night I woke up around 3:00 a.m., as I do most nights. I lay in the dark and listened.
It was quiet. Very quiet. Spooky quiet.
None of the usual noise of cars, and lawnmowers, and leaf blowers, and voices on cell phones, and barking dogs and screaming children.
There wasn't even the rustle of the trees or the bird's chirping or even the night crickets.
It was just quiet and dark.
Not like library quiet. There you have the chair scraping on the marble floors or the carts rolling booking back to the stacks or the occasional sneeze followed by the stern stare of the librarian looking over her glasses.
It was just quiet. Not a sound.
Only the beat of the heart and the whistle of air breathing breaking the silence.
I'm not use to this. For 30 years there has been a constant noise in this house, but now.....it is quiet.
I'll get acquainted with this peaceful lack of sound and will cherish it.
It was quiet. Very quiet. Spooky quiet.
None of the usual noise of cars, and lawnmowers, and leaf blowers, and voices on cell phones, and barking dogs and screaming children.
There wasn't even the rustle of the trees or the bird's chirping or even the night crickets.
It was just quiet and dark.
Not like library quiet. There you have the chair scraping on the marble floors or the carts rolling booking back to the stacks or the occasional sneeze followed by the stern stare of the librarian looking over her glasses.
It was just quiet. Not a sound.
Only the beat of the heart and the whistle of air breathing breaking the silence.
I'm not use to this. For 30 years there has been a constant noise in this house, but now.....it is quiet.
I'll get acquainted with this peaceful lack of sound and will cherish it.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Amazing Strength
Still at it. Tearing down walls,
pulling boards and wall board, avoiding 3" nails, and breathing the dust.
Today's project was to move the
deck boards used for shelving outdoors and under a tarp for spring
re-purposing.
So sliding the 20 foot board off
the braces and sliding it down the wall onto the floor. Then the second one.
Huffing and puffing and weaving
and swirling, I moved the board back and forth, up and down, trying not to
break a window, figuring out a way to get this long piece of wood out the front
door.
Unfortunately there was no way
without taking down the wall.
2 x 4 wooden studs nailed to the
ceiling, floor, and braced to each other. The wallboard peeled fairly easily
and slid to the side, but the bracing would have to be cut.
Stud by stud was cut by a circular
saw and piece by piece the wall came down.
Now a 4 foot high structure with
wall board on each side, the boards could be raised and slid over the remaining
structure which impeded entrance into the living room.
So after a breather and some
refreshment, it was time to try and remove these salt treated deck boards from
the living room.
Swivel and scrap and push over the
remaining wall structure when.....
As I held the awkward bending
wood, the four wall boards and 2 x 4 studs decided to relax on top of me.
Again, it was unexpected, but I
could brace and hold all the weight.
Now holding a 20 foot board and
bracing four wall boards, I decided to slid them to the floor.
With a bang!! they settled blowing
up dust and I pushed the board out the front door.
After settling it on the walkway,
I went back for the second 20 foot board, but of course it was under all the
wall boards.
More lifting and shifting, and the
remainders of the studs and wall board leaning up against the window next to
the door and a 4" hole in the ceiling.
Tomorrow is taking down the
bracing and filling the holes. Then on to the next room.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
My Dogs Are Barking!
So after being frustrated that the
bathroom project will take longer than expected, today’s project was to get my
home deed.
I called and confirmed the
location by phone and decided on a gray dreary day, to walk downtown.
I hadn’t done a walk from 4500
West to 900 East in sometime, but it would be a good way to relax from the
previous day’s frustration. Also, my back was acting up, so the walking would
be a good way to relax it.
A quick bottle of water (probably
should have had more) and a jell-o fruit cup, then apply a thin water resistant
jacket for the long hike.
Oh yeah, I fed the fish first. Got
to feed the critters.
Turning onto Patterson, I took a
path that had been so familiar to me. The same trip I’d used going to college,
traveling from my home to my apartment, the journey to friends and lovers, and
two job locations.
The mist filled the air and
covered the top of the WTVR tower, but the steady pace became a drum track to
several songs. Walking will do that. It’s the beat for life.
Stop to retie my shoelace on the
Boulevard. Sitting on the short wall next to the full service station where my
family would refill and have oil changed, and thought about the former service
station turned into a popular sport bar across the street.
Press on as the mist picked up.
The Robin Inn’s board was clear. Didn’t know if the rain had washed it clean or
the usual Chicken Farmer John special had changed and no one knew how to price
it. Well the apartment across the street as been rented.
At intersections, I wait for all
(that’s ALL) mobile machines to pass before I cross. Even with the light and
the OK sign, I wonder about the lack of turning signals or the driver talking
to a device or the thin air. Better safe than sorry. And I was proven right
more than once.
At Lombardy, I turn from Park to
Franklin. Not many students out, so I must be in-between classes. I do notice
every building on campus now has a sign out front. And the gym looks the same,
except for huge VCU letters on the brick façade. These fine stone houses
covered in intricate details and black forged metal work look the same as when
I would enter the glass doors to see in a former living room or parlor, desk
with secretaries on a variety desk and sliding doors presenting professors
offices with floor to ceiling bookcases and piles of paper scattered about.
And interesting sign states
“Private Property. No Trespassing” on the Pace Peace Center welcoming students
and anyone interested in “peace” to enter. Which one do you follow?
The pace on Belvidere is the same
as when a friend and I would walk to work everyday.
Down past the motel turned to
condos and the parking lot which used to be a stone apartment building where my
final class thesis was formulated in the basement among mass quantities of beer
and pot.
Up pass the apartment building
where the Martin Agency started, a man jumped off the roof, and a wonder
passionate girl who interested me to the Irish group “Them” lived.
The always-steady 5-star hotel
Jefferson stands like a rock symbol of Richmond and across the street the
top-of-the-tower restaurant with a similar phone number to my house and where a
friend of mine lived after moving out from his family due to his roaming and
drinking habits.
The up-dated Y.M.C.A. looks empty,
but a few are wearing sweats and headbands in the exercise room in front of
large windows. I still ponder about joining to use the pool, but it’s a long
way to go just for a swim.
Pass the library and the Linden
Row hotel draped in American flags. Row houses turned into a hotel? How swanky
can that be?
A turn to Broad Street I view the
construction that reminds me of the inside of my house. Cars and buses rumble
over the torn up streets going under a remake. Pass the bus stop where I would
depart for work. More parking lots dot the area, but they are far from full.
The Hilton appears busy even with the old Miller and Rhoades sign still
announcing itself to the passing traffic.
I finally reach my destination
going into the glass doors and questioning the guards at the reception desk if
the elevators went to room LL4. The guard next to the sign that stated “Have
Your ID Ready” asked what I was looking for. I stated I had come to get the
deed to my house. He quickly responded that they were no longer in the building
and had moved to 400 East Cary Street. “400 East Cary Street?” I responded and
he confirmed the directions.
Be a trusting or naïve soul, I
took the instructions as gospel, turned and proceeded to Cary Street. Upon
arrival, there was a parking lot and a Red Cross building. “Humm, I don’t think
this is right.” So it was back to my original location on Clay Street.
I started to look for a basement
entry when I realized it was the wrong building and the JM Courthouse was
across the street. After being searched by metal detector and wand then
figuring out the elevator button system, I found the LL4 room and the deed was
quickly presented to me.
Ah, satisfaction, I folded the
three page document and proceeded to the exit and onto a new adventure.
The mist had picked-up as had the
wind. Walking patently down the “wrong side” of Broad, I passed the National
Theater, which used to be one of the three movie theaters I would spend every Sunday
afternoon watching horror, cowboy, WWII, and newsreels for hours. Across the
street was a large stretch of empty grass where Thalhimers used to stand. The
rest of the old Lowes Theater and part of the department store have formed the
Center Stage performance art center, but it still looks vacant.
I smile as I pass one of the few
still open businesses on this main stretch of downtown Richmond, a small thin
space with window full of outlandish colors and fabrics of clothing. I
remembered, as a youth going to these clothiers searching for wild clothes
would not be found at any establishment in the West End. Polka dot shirts,
fringe vest, striped pants (usually too short), flowered shirts and pants, and
of course the Italian pointed “Beatle” boots. This is what local band members
wore to look different and cool.
Then darting into the pawnshops to
check out the inventory of musical instruments. No prizes, so onto the next
one, then the next one, then across the street to a music store where a
previous band use to practice in the empty third floor watching dancing in the
street below. Upon entry I noticed a box that looked like a freezer in the
grocery store with Fenders Telecasters and Stratocasters. “These must cost a
lot” I thought. The two men inside were friendly but not helpful as I roamed
through stacks of amps and checked the prices of the electric and acoustic
instruments hanging on the walls. No bad prices, but still nothing that caught
my eye. “Thank you for the memories.”
Trudging back toward VCU, I decide
I’m getting tired and should stop and eat something. The little bowl of Jell-o
fruit is not keeping up with me. Pass the old furniture building turned into
fancy vacant restaurants, tattoo parlors, and a phone dealer in the old
Welsh-Anderson paint building where I lived during my collage art years.
The “mist” was blowing harder, so
at the VCU bookstore I decided to duck in and check out any finds. Wiping off
my splashed glasses I wandered the rows of books and art supplies. Then off to
perhaps find a new VCU ball cap, but didn’t like the designs, so it was a quick
trip.
Back to Broad, trying to figure
where to stop and eat. My feet are starting to feel the pounding of the cement,
when I realized I had left my debit and credit card at home, so if I happen to
wander into trouble, I could honestly say, “ I got no money.”
Of course, I did take my
checkbook, so continually wiping off my glasses and passing an assortment of
street people, I stopped in a back to get a few bucks to pay for lunch. As I
wrote the check, the young manager came up and stated, “Our systems are down.”
I looked at the Brinks guys who had entered the bank in front of me and was now
flirting with the tellers and the guy behind me. The teller waved me forward
and again, satisfaction.
More tattoo parlors, a
reconditioned kitchen appliance store (but they were all washers and dryers),
the gay club with the name fading off the side, the former book binding
building turned into cubes and computers.
“Arbys”? No, I’ve already done
that. “Lee’s Chicken”? I want to sit down and I don’t know if I want chicken.
“Pizza Hut”? That might be good for dinner. “McDonalds?” Tempting, but not
today. “Gus’s Sport’s Lounge?” That would be new and maybe….But again, not
today. I would have stopped into “Julians” but it is no longer. So I look
farther and decide to have breakfast at “McCleans”.
Turning right pass the leftover
Subway sandwich drenched in the rain and waiting for the girl writing on a
piece of paper and trying to beat the light, my journey continues. Taking a
turn to the right pass the eastern influenced dance studio above a photo shop.
I remembered walking up the tight dark stairway to a smoky dance floor with
some old high school buddies. At the time, it was different to be on the dance
floor instead of playing to the dancers.
The Triple-A pool parlor is still
there as is the Broad St. Vet center where I spent so much money for the
beginnings of the Critter Crewe. Byram’s Seafood and Steak house is an old
Richmond landmark, but I’ve only been their once to watch a friend do stand-up
comedy.
The pace has now become a trudge.
The traffic became more complicated and the rain was blowing sideways, but a
stopping spot was in sight, even though I had to go around another block to get
there.
The parking lot didn’t look too
busy, so I entered simple white brick building across the road from the
Department of Fish and Wildlife. Finding a recently emptied booth I strip off
the wet blue jacket and notice the second layer of grey fleece hooded
sweatshirt was soaked.
I pull out the deed I had tried to
protect against the elements and laid it next to the dripping jacket. With a
quick wipe of the wooden table and the removal of former occupants plates, a
hot cup of coffee was presented to warm me up. Requesting the “Biggest
Breakfast” to the pleasant wait lady in t-shirt and jeans, I started to exam
the precious paper I had spent such a long travel to acquire.
“THIS DEED OF BARGAIN AND SALE
made this 24th day of August, 1979, by and between BLANCHE S. BYRDSONG, window,
hereinafter designated Grantor, and CLIFFORD M. LEFTWICH, hereinafter
designated Grantee. “
Three eggs over easy, toast with
butter, fried potato cubes, link sausage, large orange juice and grits with
butter was covered by pepper and slowly engulfed. A second cup of coffee and
some people observation entertained me for a while to dry and regroup.
This was the first time I had been
in this location alone. There was an interesting story on the “Today Show” this
morning about a senator who decided to go to a lone Marshall Island to see if
he could survive on his on. He did well swimming with sharks gathering crabs
and spear fishing and sleep in a hammock to stay above the climbing rats. The
most import part of the story was he said he could live by himself, but sharing
the experience.
Leaving a couple of dollars for
the delivery person, I slowly moved to a different pace back to the house
reflected by the wet deed in my pocket. Up the long block on the acclaimed
Monument Avenue occupied by only two monstrous homes and vast yards of formal
gardens, I ponder the future and the fate it brings.
Grabbing two wheels and allowing
the treasured prize of the day to dry out, I head to the grocery store to use
their restrooms and accumulate yard treats for doves, cardinals, blue jays and
all the scurrying critters. They went through all this cold and moisture too.
Settling down, bundling up in
sweats and changing shoes, I watch the yard consume their treats as I did earlier.
And my dogs are barking from such
a long travel and I will sleep well tonight.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Its Never Easy
Load out to Salvation Army, then he
next day was to replace the toilet, sink and bathtub handles.
Simple. Right?
Well today before the plumber came
by, I moved the pre-purchased toilet and sink closer to the bathroom. Then I
realized with the hurry to pass the boxes of kitchen stuff to the pickup
drivers yesterday, I forgot 3 boxes of books.
It must have been a sign.
A call came from the plumber that
they were a head of schedule and could arrive in the raining morning.
Fine. Or not so much.
So the plumber arrives and I show
him what needs to be done and he brings me an estimate. A bit higher than I
thought, but it needs to be done. So I agree and he goes and gets his tools.
Next step check the pipes and take
out the old sink and toilet. Right?
Not so fast. Removing the toilet
reveals the sub flooring around the drain pipe is rotten.
So now, the old toilet and sink are
out in the backyard and broken to pieces (Ah, that feels good), and there are
holes in the wall and floor where they used to rest.
And to top it off, the plumber
looked at the handles and pipe fixture to it, then looked through the little
door to the shower connections.
Not so fast.
The piping fixture was missing a
small plastic piece that stops the handle so that didn't work. Then he checked
the connection pipe that runs up to the shower head and worried he may have to
pull out the entire plaster wall to make the new connection.
It's never easy or cheap.
So he gave me a small portion bill
and promised to have a contractor who can fix the flooring call me.
So no bathroom for awhile. I hope
Kroger doesn't mind me bathing in their restroom.
My only cooping mechanism is to
realize this is a ONE TIME expense.
Then it's off to the wonders of a
new hot water heater and firing up the furnace after 20 years.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Interesting thought
In the "Non Sequitur" cartoon today there was an interesting statement.
"Stupid is a condition.
Ignorance is a choice."
Another story in the newspaper continues to discuss the 10 year battle over trying to update the technology in the state by outsourcing and the continuing struggle of keeping up with hardware and software without increasing the billion allotted to the task or meeting the deadlines. One director has been fired for suggesting holding payment until the outsource company meets preset goals and conditions of the contract.
And yet the state has hired consultants to suggest it take back the task of updating and installing technology and communication under the commonwealth authority and IT for an additional cost of $400 million in this already over budget down economy.
Is this process and the committees involved "stupid" or are we, a citizens and voters "ignorant" to think we will ever catch up?
"Stupid is a condition.
Ignorance is a choice."
Another story in the newspaper continues to discuss the 10 year battle over trying to update the technology in the state by outsourcing and the continuing struggle of keeping up with hardware and software without increasing the billion allotted to the task or meeting the deadlines. One director has been fired for suggesting holding payment until the outsource company meets preset goals and conditions of the contract.
And yet the state has hired consultants to suggest it take back the task of updating and installing technology and communication under the commonwealth authority and IT for an additional cost of $400 million in this already over budget down economy.
Is this process and the committees involved "stupid" or are we, a citizens and voters "ignorant" to think we will ever catch up?
Monday, October 12, 2009
My Bad
This morning I woke up to the sound of the trash trucks.
What? It is Monday, but it's Columbus Day!
I thought the city closed for Columbus Day, but there they
were picking up my trash before I could get to the alley.
I did not plan that well. I had stacked piles of wood, a
door, and flooring to cut up today because I was SURE the city didn't pick up
trash on Columbus Day.
The banks are closed because it is Columbus Day.
The federal offices are closed because it is Columbus Day.
I figured the schools were closed when I saw a mother
walking her children wearing down filled hooded parkas (while I'm wearing
shorts), but I saw some of those yellow mobile carriers rolling around.
But it's Columbus Day.
So my calendar is pushed back a day for cutting wood and
filling trash receptacles.
So a lesson learned. Not everyone closes for Columbus Day.
The day we all celebrate Columbus Ohio.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
I've lost my identity
My state identification card has expired.
So does that mean I have no identity?
I still wake up, put on the same shoes, use the same passwords, recognized by the ATM, say "Hi!" to the same people, but do they know who I am.
Until my new card arrives in the mail, I will not have any source of legal identification.
Searching for a new identity.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Remember when these numbers were important?
In 1969 the United States
government created a draft to increase the amount of bodies who could be
shipped to the other side of the world to try and stop the ENEMY?
1 9/14
2 4/24
3 12/30
4 2/14
5 10/18
6 9/6
7 10/26
8 9/7
9 11/22
10 12/6
12 12/7
13 7/8
14 4/11
15 7/12
16 12/29
17 1/15
18 9/26
19 11/1
20 6/4
21 1/16
21 8/10
22 6/26
23 7/24
24 10/5
25 2/19
26 12/14
27 7/21
28 6/5
29 3/2
30 3/31
31 5/24
32 4/1
33 3/17
34 11/2
35 5/7
36 8/24
37 5/11
38 10/30
39 12/11
40 5/3
41 12/10
42 7/13
43 12/9
44 8/16
45 8/2
45 8/4
45 8/26
46 11/11
47 11/27
48 8/8
49 9/3
50 7/7
51 11/7
52 1/25
53 12/22
54 8/5
55 5/16
56 12/5
57 2/23
58 1/19
59 1/24
60 6/21
61 8/29
62 4/21
63 9/20
64 1/30
64 6/27
65 5/10
66 11/12
67 7/25
68 2/12
69 6/13
70 12/21
71 9/10
72 10/12
73 6/17
74 4/27
75 5/19
76 11/6
77 1/28
78 12/27
79 10/31
80 11/9
81 4/4
82 9/5
83 4/3
84 12/25
85 6/7
86 2/1
87 7/20
87 10/6
88 7/28
89 2/15
90 4/18
90 7/18
91 2/7
92 1/26
93 7/1
94 10/28
95 12/24
96 12/16
97 11/8
98 7/17
99 11/29
100 12/31
101 1/5
102 8/15
103 5/30
104 6/19
105 12/8
106 8/9
107 11/16
108 3/1
109 6/23
110 6/6
111 8/1
112 5/17
113 9/15
114 8/6
115 7/3
116 8/23
117 10/22
118 1/23
119 9/23
120 7/16
122 3/7
123 12/28
124 4/13
125 10/2
126 11/13
127 11/14
128 12/18
129 12/1
130 5/15
131 11/15
132 11/25
133 5/12
134 6/11
135 12/20
136 3/11
137 6/25
138 10/13
139 3/6
140 1/18
141 8/18
142 8/12
143 11/17
144 2/2
146 11/18
147 4/7
148 4/16
149 9/25
150 2/11
151 9/29
152 2/13
153 7/22
154 8/17
155 5/6
156 11/21
157 12/3
158 9/11
159 1/2
160 9/22
161 9/2
162 12/23
163 12/13
165 12/4
166 3/16
167 8/28
168 8/7
169 3/15
170 3/26
171 10/15
172 7/23
173 12/26
174 11/30
175 9/13
176 10/25
177 9/19
178 5/14
179 2/25
180 6/15
181 2/8
182 11/23
183 5/20
184 9/8
185 11/20
186 1/21
188 7/5
189 2/17
191 4/29
192 10/20
193 7/31
194 1/9
195 9/24
196 10/24
197 5/9
198 8/14
199 1/8
200 3/19
201 10/23
202 10/4
203 11/19
204 9/21
205 2/27
206 6/10
207 9/16
208 4/30
209 6/30
210 2/4
211 1/31
212 2/16
213 3/8
214 2/5
215 1/4
216 2/10
217 3/30
218 4/10
219 4/9
220 10/10
221 1/12
222 6/28
223 3/28
224 1/6
225 9/1
226 5/29
227 7/19
228 6/2
229 10/29
230 11/24
231 4/14
232 9/4
233 9/27
234 10/7
235 1/17
236 2/24
237 10/11
238 1/14
239 3/20
240 12/19
241 10/19
242 9/12
243 10/21
244 10/3
246 9/18
247 6/22
248 7/11
249 6/1
250 5/21
251 1/3
252 4/23
253 4/6
254 10/16
255 9/17
256 3/23
257 9/28
258 3/24
259 3/13
260 4/17
261 8/3
262 4/28
263 9/9
264 10/27
265 3/22
266 11/4
267 3/3
268 3/27
269 4/5
270 7/29
271 4/2
272 6/12
273 4/15
274 6/16
275 3/4
276 5/4
277 7/9
278 5/18
279 7/4
280 1/20
281 11/28
282 11/10
283 10/8
284 7/10
286 8/25
287 7/30
288 10/17
289 7/27
290 2/22
291 8/21
292 2/18
293 3/5
294 10/14
295 5/13
296 5/27
297 2/3
298 5/2
299 2/28
300 3/12
301 6/3
302 2/20
303 7/26
304 12/17
305 1/1
306 1/7
307 8/13
308 5/28
309 11/26
310 11/5
311 8/19
312 4/8
313 5/31
314 12/12
315 9/30
316 4/22
317 3/9
318 1/13
319 5/23
320 12/15
321 5/8
322 7/15
323 3/10
324 8/11
325 1/10
326 5/22
327 7/6
328 12/2
329 1/11
330 5/1
331 7/14
332 3/18
333 8/30
334 3/21
335 6/9
336 4/19
337 1/22
338 2/9
339 8/22
340 4/26
341 6/18
342 10/9
343 3/25
344 8/20
345 4/20
346 4/12
347 2/6
348 11/3
349 1/29
350 7/2
351 4/25
352 8/27
353 6/29
354 3/14
355 1/27
356 6/14
357 5/26
358 6/24
359 10/1
360 6/20
361 5/25
362 3/29
363 2/21
364 5/5
365 2/26
366 6/8
What about today and tomorrow?
Thoughts of
the mid-week continue to follow.
The Army has
clean another area. Now it's a decision of major kitchen appliances. Keep them
or pass them on?
The wind
picked up today. That's a 30 mph wind. It slows you down or speeds you up when
you ride two wheels. And you cap needs to be put on backwards to keep from
blowing away.
You 4-wheelers
have no idea what I'm talking about.
While riding,
without ear plugs or ipods, one gets to pass joggers, walkers, and neighbors
standing in the street talking to one another. The other day I passed two young
women standing next to their mobile machines and the discussion include the
phrase, "So I told 'my staff' to ...". I thought about the
description of employees or as we tried to make politically correct by call
people who were hired and employed by a corporation as "associates".
They were not "writers", or "journalist", or
"photographers", or "editors", or even "artist";
though we did make some categories like "imagers" from the old
"engravers" who created the metal plates, or "paginators"
from the old text paste-up staff, but it did not change the value or self worth
of each employee. No matter of the name, each felt like a "production
worker".
And I
never....NEVER....discussed the people who were under my charge as "my
staff". Each had a personal name and skill to best utilize the completion
of the daily task.
With some old
school buddies and lunch I contemplated school and what it meant to me. I was
surprised I was the only one of the three who started at the college and
finished at the same place, while the others went off in different directions.
I remembered my grades were bad, but it kept me out of the military and lucky
to continue into playing until a true employment was necessary. I think about
the schooling system with their huge yellow buses absorbing their charges to
deliver to the absorption rooms of science, math, English, history, and, if
lucky, the arts. Also the charges were fed and in this detention center, kept
safe until the parents could live their employment and pick up their little
people to deliver back to the family. And the school became the second family
and taught social skills. Then I pass a woman (I assume a mother) and two small
children sitting in front of a house in the neighborhood, reading and asking
questions. Home schooling? Interesting in this day and age, and would it work?
Cyclist call
climbing mountains as an "attack". Attacking hills prepares the rider
to gather the resources to climb the grade with a push of muscle and pedal. I
have found it much more enjoyable to attack the hills than coast down the other
side.
Some people
believe that when the body ceases to function, the mind continues to move on.
No one can say for sure, but it is a question to ponder. Others believe that
when the body stops, the "being", whatever you call it, turn into
butterflies. I've been surrounded by butterflies this fall and pause everything
I see one of these fragile creatures. So remember be kind to these angles.
So tomorrow,
clean out the plastic pots, cuts down a wall, have lunch with my brother, call
the Social Security to make sure the death notification is complete, and call a
plumber about installing a new bathroom.
Another full
day, in Just Another Life.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Better day
Things fell together today.
Pulled up wire cages buried in the dirt, trim some of the branches, fill a void in the walkway with pine needles, another donation to the Army, trim roses and vines, grocery shopping with 5% discount for being old, open the cedar trunk to find the adoption baby dress, trim some of the bamboo,health insurance with fruit and oatmeal and fish.
Not a lot, but better than yesterday.
Tomorrow, catch up on the Department of Motor Vehicles ID and lunch with old friends.
Pulled up wire cages buried in the dirt, trim some of the branches, fill a void in the walkway with pine needles, another donation to the Army, trim roses and vines, grocery shopping with 5% discount for being old, open the cedar trunk to find the adoption baby dress, trim some of the bamboo,health insurance with fruit and oatmeal and fish.
Not a lot, but better than yesterday.
Tomorrow, catch up on the Department of Motor Vehicles ID and lunch with old friends.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Some Days Just Don’t Work Out
Everyone has those days.
Mine started last Friday when the
Salvation Army called about 4:00 p.m. and said they could not get a driver to
pick up my donation and had to reschedule. After waiting all day, I reloaded
the boxes back into the house and filled the space until Tuesday.
That took all the projects off for
the weekend, so it was football and beer.
So my Monday was free, I decided to
renew my almost expired Virginia identification badge and go to the hardware
store to replace a drawer knob from a tool case.
Simple right?
Well after my morning ride and
newspaper read, I saddled up and peddled for the Department of Motor Vehicles.
Locking my two wheels on a bike rack out front, I climbed the steps, filled out
the appropriate form, and sat with my number, patiently waiting my turn to get
a photo.
I entertained myself with
overhearing a young man trying to get a license after getting a ticket. It took
several managers to detail the process the DMV goes through and could not
change the rules for the growing impatient driver.
Then the call came out from one
behind the desk. “If you are waiting for a renewed driver’s license or
identification card, the computer software that processes those has gone down
throughout the state. You can wait or come back later, but they can not be
processed now.”
OK. I took my form and walked out.
This project just wasn’t meant today.
So I walked my bike down Broad to
Lowes to pay on my card and find some pulls for my drawer toolbox. Simple
right? Not so much.
I looked at the wall of pulls and
everything was too big. So I asked a smiling employee if there were other knobs
and he directed me to another area, but they were still too big.
But I got 12 wooden knobs, with my
glass doorknobs, and checked out.
As soon as I filled my bags I
remembered I was also going to get some lights, so I returned to the store,
found the lights, then checked out again.
Still wondering about the knobs, I
decided to got to the next hardware store a block away and try again. I found
some brass knobs that were similar at a price of $5.00 each. Then I found
porcelain knobs and after some decision and searching found 12 of them.
Once home, I compared the knobs to
the tool chest and was not satisfied with any of them.
So tonight, I sit without a renewed
ID and missing one knob.
But tomorrow is another day.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Another Days Thoughts
Dogs barking as the sun sets.
continuing to bark.
and continue barking.
Full moon waits for the evening hours.
Water and fruit and a 10 mile ride, almost finished before
it began.
The usual Saturday.
Young women parading their pride.
Sweaty jogger with a pain on her face. That doesn't look
like fun.
Soccer players going to play in a car pool.
Young writer and mom going to the gym.
Stalking cats. Do see their prey, but they might just be playing a cat.
Concentration and calculations. Followed by a white vehicle and gauging the vehicle in front with wings open. Enough space for all to pass, since we will all meet at the same spot at the same time. But what if a body jumps out in the path?
I allow the white vehicle pass so I can ride another day.
Yard sales, quiet gray high school except for it's dragon, and couple playing tennis on the newly paved courts.
Water and old news in the paper.
Then a walk to the hardware store for expandable screws to hopefully hold a clothes hanger and a dish drainer. Pretty darn exciting stuff.
Football, beer, and a hamburger.
The sun burst forth as the afternoon presents the old college and art shop.
15% discount and a ride back home with new drawing board covers.
More football and rice and string beans.
The air is cooler and the body is tired, so the Sooners and Hurricanes will have to wait until tomorrow.
Good night.
Second Coming by Alice Cooper
I couldn't tell
if the bells were getting louder
the songs they ring I finally recognize
I only know
hell is getting hotter
the devil's getting smarter all the time
And it would be nice
to walk upon the water
to talk again to angels on my side
Time is getting closer
I read it on a poster
fanatical exposers
on corners prophecy
It would be nice
to walk upon the water
to talk again to angels at my side
I just come back
to show you all my words are golden
so have no gods before me
I'm the light
(or I’m a lie?)
if the bells were getting louder
the songs they ring I finally recognize
I only know
hell is getting hotter
the devil's getting smarter all the time
And it would be nice
to walk upon the water
to talk again to angels on my side
Time is getting closer
I read it on a poster
fanatical exposers
on corners prophecy
It would be nice
to walk upon the water
to talk again to angels at my side
I just come back
to show you all my words are golden
so have no gods before me
I'm the light
(or I’m a lie?)
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Locked Up
After years of living in this little house
In a safe neighborhood
With the doors unlocked
I got deadbolt locks installed.
Do I feel any safer? Not really.
Do I have anything I need to protect? Not really. Any “thing” can be replaced
And I’m not sure...
Are the locks to keep others out? …
Or keep me in?
It is another key to carry.
In a safe neighborhood
With the doors unlocked
I got deadbolt locks installed.
Do I feel any safer? Not really.
Do I have anything I need to protect? Not really. Any “thing” can be replaced
And I’m not sure...
Are the locks to keep others out? …
Or keep me in?
It is another key to carry.
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